I’m just going to say it. I’ve been struggling.
These past couple of months have been hard, in several different ways that I’m not going to talk about because I’m not a sharer like that. It’s enough that they have been hard.
My struggle hasn’t so much been with the parts that have been hard, but with the dilemma of how to react to them in ways that would make them not be so hard now and in the future. One of those reactions has involved what to do with this space, because clearly I’m not using it effectively anymore, if I ever did at all.
Things are changing. I’m changing. Again. Well, I should say still because the one thing that is always constant is change, right? I have toyed with the idea of just stopping with the blog, but that doesn’t seem to be the right thing. I’ve done that before and missed it terribly. So I will continue in this sporadic, maybe even somewhat anemic, fashion until things become more clear.
But I need to step away from a few things. I am in this mood to circle my wagons, to draw my few close peoples very close around me, and hunker down in a cave for a while. Because if there’s one thing I’ve learned lately it’s who my friends really are. And also that I have reached a zero tolerance level for bullshit and facades.
I don’t know why I feel compelled to even make this statement, other than the fact that when people disappear for a while without some sort of notice it never goes well upon re-entry.
Not that I plan on disappearing, per-se. Just that I plan to not be around as much. I am limiting my online time because there’s no internet connection in the middle of the cave, yo. I’ll still be reading, I’m just going to be quieter about it because lately I don’t have a lot to say, and what I do have to say right now is not always what people want to hear.
So I’ll be here, sometimes. The rest of the time I’ll be working out my shit. Send me an email or catch me on Twitter or Facebook.
You take your time and regroup; we’ll still be here when you get back.
In the meantime, I hope you figure out what you need to and that your road becomes smoother quickly.
I am here if you need to “talk.”
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Lisa Reply:
January 31st, 2010 at 11:06 am
@Finn, Thanks
I may just take you up on that!
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January 30th, 2010 at 10:37 pm
I totally get this and your need or want to say it. I’m always going in and out of cavewoman mode and yanno, that’s a-okay! I’ll be here when you want to blog again but HERE in real life if you need me. And? Soon I will be able to come see you and talk about life’s ups and downs for real.
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Lisa Reply:
January 31st, 2010 at 11:08 am
@Hilly, It’s going to be awesome when you’re just over the hill!
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January 31st, 2010 at 4:19 am
Blog when you want to, take care of yourself and focus on you, and we’ll still be here. And in the interim, if you need to chat or talk, my virtual door is always open. My actual door is closed, but only because I don’t want bugs getting into the house.
Avitable´s last blog ..We cured AIDS!
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Lisa Reply:
January 31st, 2010 at 11:12 am
@Avitable, Thanks Adam, you’re a pretty cool cat even if you do kick my ass at Words with Friends.
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January 31st, 2010 at 5:42 am
Home. Cookies. Puppies. Cave. Love you.
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January 31st, 2010 at 12:25 pm
Take care of yourself my darling – I’ve done the hermiting thing many times, and most likely will again. I look forward to hearing from you once you perk your head up again.
xoxo
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February 2nd, 2010 at 10:36 am
Hey girl! I totally understand what you’re saying and going thru. I myself disappear for awhile when I am having hard times. Do what you have to and take as much time as it takes. I, along with everyone else will still be around when you are ready to come out of your cave
Call or email anytime if u need to!
Hugs!
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February 5th, 2010 at 4:28 pm
Good for you. I hope you’re able to find clarity and peace.
Kelly @ The Startup Wife´s last blog ..Super Bowl Sundays
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February 9th, 2010 at 12:01 am